lay in bed. didnt want to wake up in the morning.
reluctantly drag my feet into the washroom when e alarm clock rang.
its funny when you cant slp and night when you are suppose to.
and always feel so much like a 10kg weight hanging down from your eyelid in the morning.
late for chinese class.
alone... so sian luhh. but at least i get to concentrate.
im adapt to being alone. its quite suprising of how loner doesnt nid company.
truly admired but i can nv be.
after that got a 15min break and went opp buy drink and tibits.


went thearette for Bio lecture.
some1 from Acrea(spellcheck) org came.
talking abt animals wellfare.
really, we shld respect the wild. saw pics of bear being cage up and poaches will force a tube into the bear's adomen just to get its bile for chinese medicine.
and the bear is force to wear a heavy harness and had no cavity at all.
faint*
how cruel can human be.
sat in front of mel and sophie.
they was like you nv go dance for so long.
heh.


went central with yj n jie.
okay. go thr like almost everyday.
chatted in mc and blahblahblah.
slack arnd thr and went back home.




i read blog too.
and now i'm shattered into pieces.
its beyong description.
because you've nv feel the same for me like you do for her.

for single word that pierce through my eye

its killing me
my heart died like a withered rose.
tears fall like how river flows
yet you nv know
tt my affection wasn't just a show.

who will be thr to piece my heart.
for its all shattered and abandon

you tore it apart so easily like a piece of paper

and the chill you left behind was suffocating me in a pit so dark.

i couldnt see sunrise anymore

you used to make my day so bright

tell me how you love for countless night

you was an angel in my eyes

but all you left were emptiness in my heart

it feels like walking bare footed on roads of broken glasses everyday

i rather that this current second would pause forever

so that i wouldn't have to move on.

there's no sorry to speak of.

it doesnt matter anymore

for it's just a word to replace tt you're leaving

since the day you choose to walk back

to continue the chapter you had stop writing.

i know im not allowed to utter a word.

life's struggle.

i just have to stay strong.

im all by myself now.

i force myself to stop missing.

tried my best to start forgeting

i told myself i do not love you anymore

but am i?

im slowly dying away each time i try to forget.