my blogger is alright today.
but my mood isnt.
sometimes i have to come across things tt i would rather close my eyes and walk away.
because the truth is dangerous.
because im not able to let anyone in anymore.
because all thanks to you, your beautiful lie.
i see people walking in my footsteps.
sometimes i want to help so much
sometimes i see my friend behaving a little like you.
i told them not to.
nah, i'm not trying to show how great i am but things do get a little out of hand.
esp when its all about you.

i hold my breath when someone mention you.
they didnt do it on purpose, they didnt know.
i could hardly move on.
like to fake a smile everyday, you try.
its tiring, i feel so disgusted at times.

you can start laughing, jeer at me.
you can giggle in front of your com.
i wun feel a pinch. i think you did right instead.
but if you're gonna feel sorry or stare hard and think, what am i doing?
i tell you, not a moment of folly & maybe you're nv wrong.
just tt im dumb enough. Don't pity me. i rather remain foolish.
i used to love you and maybe i still am now.
unsure. months of pondering.

if you can stop doing things tt will ever indirectly{accidently} catch my attention.
like you've nv been in my life.
you did a great help.