Times like this makes me feel empty deep inside.
Not because I have things missing in my life, I will describe it as not having a goal to look and work towards to.
My future that lies ahead looks rather bleak. Each time I try to picture it, I see nothing achievable neither anything to be proud of. So afraid that it will not be as comfortable and easy as what my parents have provide me.
Sine when have I been good at anything?

Nevertheless, Smelly will still b part of the motivation and I believe he will be in the upcoming chapters of my life. I'm thankful to have him around with me.