today, 8.52a.m.
everything's gone. all gone.
except for the few i couldn't bear.
wanted to press cancel, determination halt my finger.
Ego suppressing tears.
Laughter over heart sore wail
Smile concealing melancholiness
It's okay, i reassured myself.
Where's the girl i once knew.
I hate myself for being myself.
I hate myself for asking too much at a time.
I hate myself when i couldn't meet my demands.

I need one more chance, a new environment.
Shld I leave or not.
What if leaving meant a life harder for my love ones.
What rights do I have to make them suffer.
What if my selfish decision takes me to an earthly hell.
What if my life leads to nowhere.
What if.....