I haven write any new year resolutions because i think everything i wish for will be the same.

My life is mundane, no sparks no colours because im somehow contented.

Everytime i gets my hope held up high, it'll somehow fail because of my incapabilities.

I'm not able to make most of what i want happen every year but at least I know I've guts to give it a try.

So the same thing is going to happen this year & life get less comfortable everytime a year passed.

I forget to mention that i finally cut my hair this year and i feel good about it.

This could be a fresh start for something new then.

Ooh, i just check a special diploma thing ytd, $9300 for the course i wanted to join.

The price make me not even want to mention it, there's no education to be mentioned without having enough cash.

It makes me feel so repelled i can hardly look forward to anything.

Maybe i shld just start writing down all my anger and distress or else i will start complaining again. I feel sick of myself too but then again its so much easier for me to feel angry than sad.

Will learn to be independent, im a big girl now.